籍贯:Selangor, Malaysia.

居住地:Student

学校:SJKC.KB, SMK.EH, UM

喜爱的书籍:The Book Of Insult

喜爱的电影:Medabots

喜爱的音乐:George Michael, Phil Collins

关于我详细的介绍:3.12.09
Nothing out of d ordinary. It's just another thurs. I hav been roaming around n now only 25 more days left.
I wondered if I had more things would I be happier? Being with u to me's always an emotional experience, really emo 1. I always laugh more, cry more, n think more than with any other. Most probably crying most of da time.
U said that god has a way of shaking things up. U always said that we'd meet again. Ya i know we gonna meet again soon, really soon. Can we not to meet so soon? I haven prepared yet.
I dunno whether I really care if my life could hav more meaning onot, all I really care about right now is that im happy with da ways things r going right now.
Is it now da time for me to realize that everyone of us has da choice of the rest of our life? Whether i choose da right door or da left door, da choice is mine right?
N so pls leave me here n we'll only be discussing this again when i see u on 28th dec.

5.12.09
Guys, i would like to take a long leave. a really long 1...2 or 3 days maybe? dun laugh at me ya this is really long for someone who is addicted to all da games here hor..
im physically, mentally n emotionally abused. gonna rip. pls miss me as i promise u that i would miss u too. hope to see u guys soon. i love u guys as deep as d ocean n as high as da mountain. (quoted by dr.yoon)
however, it is this very love that caused me pain. i hav no idea who is d one that stigmatised me. what i did to u? being too friendly to everyone but not to u? having good sense of humour which u r lacking of? siding da right person but not u?
anyway, i think i shud thank u on behalf of my family n best frens in real life as i finally could be away fr here for awhile. they hav been complaining that i've spent too much time here nvr hang out with them bla bla bla.
i sincerely thank u for hurting me.
thank you. nanrii. 谢谢. terima kasih. kamsahamida. 唔该. arigatogozaimas.
at last but not least, my beloved frens that trusted me.
i love u guys.
see u soon muax!

15.12.09
today is a super lucky day~~
result's out n im
got a call fr vivian before checking da result n another call fr choy aft checking it. then tao n amy called^^
omg omg i just cant believe it. hav been worrying for almost 3months!
i love u guys muax muax~~~

16.12.09
Ever met someone who makes up stories n put other people in bad light just so that others will support her, sympathize with her? Well, I've met such a someone. Shit. Sympathy beggar. Waste of oxygen. Cant take it anymore! grrrrrrrrrrrr

18.12.09
Today is another happy day^^ got to take pics with my beloved simon n all da chipmunks~~~ we sang n danced n had lots of fun~~~ i love simon yes I LOVE SIMON!!!!!!!


19.12.09
Sad~~~just noticed tat da pic of simon n i which taken by my sista is mad blurry!!! d other pics that taken by me r just nice. grrrrr my dearest oh dearest sista!!!!!!!

20.12.09
Ever accidentally thrown sumthing in da garbage, only to hav to go through a mess to retrieve it? if u did u r lucky coz at least u got da chance to try retriving it. Yes. i accidentally threw away my colour contacts n i only found out this aft a week!! im really idiot. im wondering r there too many idiotic cells in my body... i was really sad bcoz of da blurry pic but this is even sadder...

21.12.09
West ham united vs Chelsea 1-1
One sad thing aft another.. christmas is only 4days away but i hav removed my little xmas tree n packed all da stuff.. i had to. no more xmas decorations coz mom said they look like garbage heap...rip.

22.12.09
HoME SwEeT HoMe~~~ there is no place like home weiiiii!!!! finally got back home!! couldnt get to play smooth bcoz of this stupid broadband. so pissed off with maxis. shud hav potong earlier...
hoorayyyyyy~~wishing everyone a blessed winter solstice^^must eat tang yuan hor!!

24.12.09
Tis's so unreal! hav been goin through gsc's avatar 3d online purchase over n over again n most r more than 70% booked..Im looking for good seats... watched it last nite but i wanted to watch 3d!!!! avatar is just awesome..."i see u. i see u". love it love it love it. nvm will be trying again...avatar n simon im coming^^

25.12.09
MeRRy cHrIsTmAs!!!
I wonder if my present will come in a really HUGEEEEEEEEEEE box since i hav been a good gal this year hoho..really good leh. or a small present in a huge box maybe?

26.12.09
I got ben10 watch during xmas eve last year.. tis year i hav got another kids' stuff! wat a huge joke of the year!!! will never know tat pampers might come in handy next year

5pm
Im getting ready to return to school tmr.. end of holidays n start of final sem.. pressure is slowly creeping in on me.. grrrrrrrr....
the last day of my 3 month break! Tmr is not counted. driving and cleaning da room is NOT holiday. so today, can i play till i siao?

27.12.09
so down. so depressed so upset. can i not to school so soon?

28.12.09
wishing me HapPy 23rD bIrThDaY in advance hoho^^

29.12.09
It's my buffday^^ a day to cherish, to care, to give, to take n its time to forget my past n live life with a new hope n new believes. happy buffday to ME^^



1.1.2010
Happy New Year to meeeeeee!!! My wishes for yr 2010 =
* to look at da pain in da face n say "to hell with u!"
* to cherish n treasure da final 5 months of uni with da ppl I hav grown fond of
* n to keep my head held high no matter what~~~~~~~

25.1.2010
Walala~~~ class was a drag.. until da infected uni computer started projectin adult entertainment sites n picture spam of male genetalia for da whole class to see. Smack right in da face. What a way to chase away Monday blues.. @_@

14.5.2010
So tired of everything. N i really mean everything. So much of negativity. N i used to believe that it's me who influences d environment, not d other way around.
but recently, i lost control. offended pretty much peeps n i let the petty things affected me. i lost it all. i lost my passion , my patience, altogether.
i need to change. if not , make changes. i cannot rely other people to make me feel good. i need to achieve my own happiness within me.
whatever it is. it's so hard to predict what's in for me now onwards since the end is the new beginning for me.

graduation'll b happening soon , happy yet so T_T
like wow 4 yrs just gone liddat wtf, i've been stucked with the uni for 4 yrs man!!!
start working next week lu.. tired. to be continued bah...

15.5.2010
Woke up early in da morning n tis song started playing in my brain.

total eclipse of d heart.
Turn around every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turn around Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turn around Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turn around Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turn around bright eyes Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around bright eyes Every now and then I fall apart
And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Once

my friends, understand me no? read this if you promise no emo. =p

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soli, too sensitive for issues T__T

28.5.2010
Everyday is another fruitful day. we'll never know what to expect. now it's bad, next is good. so never to lose hope even once !!!! never doubt what lies ahead of you...

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10.1.2011
zai i had a bad day.
a seriously bad 1 today.
i cried so badly in da skool.
cried out so damn loud like i've nvr cried b4.
at tat moment i tot i'd hav gone crazy. in da car la no one noticed tat.
all tis while i din tell u how i am doin here in johor.
i've been here for about 22days n today is now da 7th day of skooling/
teaching since d skool reopened on 3rd jan which was last mon.
started fr da 2nd day up to now,
da mind of resigning/
quiting fr da skool hasnt ever stopped for a second
n it's even getting stronger as time goes by n eventually
my emotion brokedown just now.
in da batch of freshies tat reported to tis skool,
im d only chinese out of da 6.
on da 1st day i already sensed tat
d environment isnt friendly to me n da teachers r bias.
im form teacher of form 5 last class.
a secretary of da teachers' committee,
treasurer of JKD (jawatankuasa kerja daerah)
which is da state project in pasir gudang,
johor tat deals wit d other 33skools' treasurers,
president of british council club n kelab polo basikal,
2nd teacher-in-charge of persatuan bahasa cina
n many more tat i believe will be coming soon in future.
ya i know tat pasir gudang is a malay area
n so i've expected tat most of da ppl i'll
be facing n seeing here will be malay.
i didn get culture shock as i could expect wat to be happened
here in terms of da race of ppl,
da confusing and nervous feelings
i may hav in da new environment.
BUT I'VE NEVER EXPECTED TAT THEY COULD BE SO SORELY BIAS.
1stly, it's really fine for me to be a form teacher
of da last class of form 5 when d other 5freshies
r da form teachers of form 1, 3 n 4 middle class.
not even da last class.
ok fine. i took it as a coincidence.
but it's so obvious when i was selected to be
da secretary of teachers' committee when there r
93teachers in da skool!
it was da 1st meeting we had in da skool n
out of da sudden they called my name n said tat im da secretary.
they tot im so dumb dunno wat tricks they were playing.
ok fine i took it as an opportunity for me to learn new things.
dealing wit da meeting minutes n letters r d
only things u tot i need to do?
no! da very noble president kept correcting my letters
every time when i tot it's gonna be da last time to edit
over n over again until 1 letter could hav been
edited for more than 5times.
ok fine at least i learnt how to do meeting minutes.
da 3rd day of skool which was last wed,
i was told my stand-high-above mentor tat i've to come out
wit da 2011 form4 yearly scheme of work!
i was like wth...come on im just a fresh graduate
how am i supposed to know how am i supposed to do!
she just gav me d instruction n walked away without
giving me da chance to ask more.
ok fine i tried to seek help fr d others
since i hav a mouth to ask n a heart to learn.
i went to see an eng teacher tat i think she could help
as i heard tat she was doin tis last yr.
n guess wat!! at 1st she just ignored my qs
n pretended she didn see me standing beside her.
i was like halo??? got my qs repeated wit volume increased.
n she gav me 1 kinda look as if
i nvr realised how silly i was n said tat:
just do lah nobody taught me when i was doin tis.
my blood pressure went so high.
i think i'd hav fainted if im not strong enuff.
i fisted, took a deep breath, smiled to her, said thank you
n walked back to my seat b4 i lost control.
at tat moment wat i wanted to do is
to show her my middle fingers!
yes MIDDLE FINGERS OF MY BOTH HANDS!!
fucking bitch.
n eventually tis stupid scheme of work has been done
by ur roomie, me, myself n i all alone aft 3days n nites of editing.
all these incidents r just not enuff to beat me down until today,
da PK.Koku told me tat i need to get
2strategic plans of britich council club n kelab polo basikal
done n hand in to him by tis wed!!
n ya u know y am i supposed to do tis?
becoz im d president of tis 2 stupid clubs.
i hav no idea at all wat strategic plan is
how it looks n smells like
n now u expect me to get it done in 2days time???
he obviously thinks tat im so godly.
ya all da teachers in tis skool tot tat chinese is god.
i actually told him tat i dun think i can make it as i dunno how to.
he said tis to me:
anggap inilah peluang untuk u belajar!
tis really ignited my anger n i told him tat
i feel like wanna resign n gone home straight.
he must be shocked bah coz all da days im here
i always smile n act so friendly.
when i was walking to my car i knew tat teardrops
were in my eyes n yes just da moment i
stepped into da car n locked da door da teardrops
fell with heedless speed n like wat i told u i cried out loud.
damn ma de loud memang not only puled
but cried loud loud.
n i called my mom asking her if i can just resign
give all da shit back to da babis n go home.
da moment my mom picked up call
i was just only being able to say sorry n paused
for some seconds.
mom got shocked n asked if my car got crashed or
i terlanggar ppl..
i coulnt answer her coz i was bz whimpering then she asked
if i lost da money (im holding 2k plus of class fund).
so i told her tis n tat so n so bla bla bla.
i was ok d rite aft calling her listening to her voice,
i was more calm.
zai just telling u all these to let u know tat
i think i could understand how u felt
when u were working in e y last time.
ta ma de bu hao sou.
i dreamt of u for more than twice sincei was in johor.
n always think of u.
da times we had in coll.
most of da time i felt hard when i looked at da pics
we took especially those taken in our 1st yr,
i really laughed coz they really cheered n made my day.
tat day when i was shopping alone in jusco here
i got headache when i was choosing a handbag for myself.
there were 2 bags, white n black.
i shilly-shallied for so long n in d end i didn buy any.
n tat time i was thinking if u were there i'd hav choose n bought 1.
sian.
probably i put too high of expectation on da skool
n da new life await me. thus it really
gave me a strong hit when da things
didn turn out in da way i expected.
im so frustrated now i really dunno
wat i shall take in consideration now
would it be da quality of life i lead in future,
da disappointment tat i might bring to myself n my family
or d eventual disillusionment of my life.
damn sian.
life is tough though.
i always know tis but y mine is always tougher than d others?
sian.
so down.
down to d earth.
anyway, when i was writing tis halfway,
my eldest sis, twins siss called n spoke to me.
must be my mom telling them wat happened hahaa.
they all want me to resign.
i duwan to.
even though i've actually got da
resignation letter typed n printed out.
i just wanna c how far i can go.
they said tat im actually torturing myself.
i dunno.
just giv myself n d other babis 1 last chance bah.
by d end of tis week, if da situation doesnt get better
then i'll just quit without looking back.
zai wo bu hui ze me rong yi bei da bai de.

bubuububububububu.
zai i just wanna tell u tat i miss u so damn much.
must make sure tat u'll come back in cny yr to
giv watever da bday present tat u bought me hehehe.
watever it s i'll sure like it hoho.
love u as high as da sea as deep as d ocean gagagagga.

LOVES.
fr da prettiest n strongest zhu zai in da world.
__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ 15.5.2011

im sorry if i did hurt u by saying something tat made u feel hurt. if u meant to do so to make me feel hurt, yes i can tell tat it was a successful 1.